The Christmas Break!

Well there has been a very strong spirit of Christmas this year! Its been so nice to see and visit with my family! This year wasn't like most other Christmas', Its beena tough year for all of us...but you know...the Christmas season isn't about presents! So I am so glad that this year was the way it was! It helped me focus on the true meaning of Christmas! We should never forget that this is the season we remember our Savior coming to the earth, to prepare a way for us to return and live with him again! What a beautiful promise!!

While i was with my family in Mexico i was able to get to know my Grandmother Johnson better! She makes me laugh so hard! There is a funny story about her, the night before my Aunt Maree was able to come down,(b/c my Aunt Jo who lives there with here had gone to the Carribbean to visit my Uncle Daniel for Christmas) my sister Alli and I were able to spend the night with Grandma! Well the next morning when we were having breakfast, we were talking about weight and stuff then all of a sudden my Grandma had turned to Alli and said, "you need to gain more weight, you are too skinny!" Cause my sister is tiny! It was so funny cause she was SERIOUS!! Then Alli said, "Well its not my fault that i play basketball and excersise!" my Grandma then said, "I just wish that i was able to excersise more, but my heart and body just won't allow it!" My Grandma is 93!! and she is saying this!! but then I said, "Grandma at your age you aren't supposed to be excersising!" Then my Grandma turned and looked at me and said, "at my age I should be down in the dumps!" I just couldn't believe that this came out of my Grandmothers mouth!! I just couldn't stop laughing! It was sooo funny! I am just so glad and very grateful for the opportunity for being able to get to know her and have fun and experiance so much with her! She is so strong, in more ways than one! She goes to the temple anytime she can. She is still working in the temple down there! I just hope and pray that i will be able to go through the temple and have her there with me! We have been so blessed to have her here still with us! I love her so much!

This is Me and my Grandma!! Beautiful ain't she?!

Not knowing what to say....

There comes a time for everyone to come to a crossroad in their lives. A time to decide what to do with their lives, but then a big stump or a big rock falls into their path and they stumble. No one likes it when this happens, for it promotes change and change isn't what happens in daily life. We have out routines and our traditions and we don't like to stray from those very often. Ya when it is convinient for them or when they are trying to better themselves, they will accept it. But what about the times that it just leaves you stopped, wondering, and scared?! They say that when things like this happen, it is to make you stronger, to help you understand that life isn't always easy, and its to test us. Others have also told me that the lord doesn't put anything into your 'path' that you can't handle! Well i honestly have thought that to be true and wanted to believe it my entire life! But let me enlighten you! There are some odd numbers of suicides in this world. Mostly here in the US. Now do you believe that God was the one that put the trials and struggles in their lives to strengthen them? Take druggies for example, how do you suppose they got that addiction? From God? NO the human body is weak, most of them knew it was bad! But they couldn't control that need to have it! But then they contract aids from a bad needle! So i ask again, you think that God put that struggle in their lives to strengthen them? To make them a better person?! Well I don't believe that! They put it upon THEMSELVES!! God is NOT the cause or hurt or pain in our lives!! It is ourselves putting that into out lives! God is a source of Peace, Comfort, Understanding, and Joy! So how can they beleive that its God's fault for the hurt, pain and hunger?!

Now i know that there are things that happen to good people, and it very well could be that God is trying us to be strong. But it is not always God! So i would like to know why and how did I become one of those to have a tumor?! Was i doing bad things? Was I making bad decisions? Do I blame God for this? No! It just so happened that my body grew a Pilocytic Astrocytoma Bengin Tumor. Things do happen for a reason, but God is not always the reason! The reason's do vary from the choices and decisions that we make in our lives! So we need to strive to do our best and continue to follow the Lord in righteousness and everthing will be ok! Even if bad things do happen we know its not because of the choices we have made, it just happened! And thats the truth!

Know i love you guys and hope that life is good!! I would love to hear from you and get your comments/feedback!! Take care i wish you all the happiness in life that you can only recieve through our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ!! Hugs and Kisses!

Update on my doctors appointment!

So this last Monday, i was in Tucson checking up with my doctor! I have been really nervous about going to this appointment cause i was affraid that he might say that there was some growth so i would have to start radiation. Well I got the MRI first, and i had the doctors assistant get a copy for me of my MRI so i can post it here but it isn't opening. So i talked to the doctor and he said that the tumor................was unchanged!!! YAY!!! Relief beyond relief!!! So this is a good thing!! So i asked him if i could head on back to school, and start working, and if i could start driving again! He said......yes, yes, and YES!!! He wants me to do these things!! So i am really excited. I have been trying to get things all put back together so i can go back to school. Well i was in Thatcher Tuesday, and i talked to alot of people but not the people who i NEED to talk too! So i have been kinda frustrated with the possibility to go to school but not being able to get the scholarship, that i had last year, back. For they thought that i wouldn't be able to come back. Now all scholarships are gone. They said that they will do what they can to get that scholarship back but it doesn't look promising! Then i tried to fill out the FAFSA, the free money from the government to go to school, but i don't have the paper work for that. I did not file taxes...and neither did my father. But i can use my W-2's but thats in Thatcher and i am in Mexico. School starts on the 18th and its not looking like i will be able to go to school this semester! I am still trying to work things out but its just not falling into place. Maybe this is supposed to be hard cause its what i need to be doing, but i just don't know how i am going to be able to get it done!! Well just one last thing....I read the first Twilight book and i like it alot!! looking forward to start the next one!! Sorry for the rambling!!

The horse ride!!!

So i do not have any pictures of this so i am going to let you use your imaginations!! But your imagination is full of creativity!! So anyways; It was a hot day in Colonia Juarez, Mexico. (August 5th) I went horse back riding with my good friend, Kassi Romney, and my cousin Andi Johnson. We went up to the orchards and picked some apples to eat! They were delicious!! So on our way home we stopped at my house so i could change my pants for i had ripped them getting onto the horse. So after i had changed the horses knew that they were on their way home, and when they know that they get really excited and start running. Well the saddle that i had didn't have a right sturrup! It was just missing! lol So the horses started running and since i didn't have a sturrup i couldn't really hold myself on the right side, so i started slidding off. Well i caught myself, but at the moment i looked up and saw Kassi Romney pass infront of me and she was falling off too. I started laughing so hard cause it was a funny site to see here bouncing and starting to fall off on the right. Well i was laughing so hard i lost my grip and started falling again, the horse was slowing down and then stopped. At that point my right leg was under the horses belly, and my left leg was still over the saddle. Well the horse stopped and i just couldn't stop laughing so i fell completely off! I was laughing even harder cause i was falling off...so i was just full of laughter and couldn't control myself! but i am fine nothing happened it was just really funny! So i got back on the horse and ran home. This time i did not fall off!! PROPS FOR ME!!! lol Well hope you enjoyed the story!